#4: 4 Random Things

1. Today I am giving a seven minute lesson in my mission prep class. Which I FEEL nervous about, but at the same time, I'm not nervous about it. The lesson I'm giving is on The Fall and Agency. I think I have some really good things to say about it. So, I guess I'll see how it goes soon.

2. Spring Break is next week and I am SO ready for Arizona, oh so so so so so ready. Me and Whit are heading down after she gets off work, so that should be pretty dang fun! Four hours of being all by ourselves in a car? I'm 94% sure that tears will be shed. I don't think that's a bad thing, it's just what happens when we get together. :) Also, SIX FLAGS. yes.

3. My university does it's own version of Dancing With the Stars every year (members of the Ballroom team partner up with "stars" of the campus, such as the Student Body President, professors, and just popular people and put on a huge show). And last night this event took place. My friend Sam was in it and he did really well, but he didn't make it to the finals. Although, he said he only had two weeks to work on his routine whereas everyone else had about two months. So it was cool to see him up there.

4. Also last night they announced the results of the student elections, which have been going on all week. I had a friend running for Vice President of Academics, and unfortunately he lost. He worked really hard and he really deserved it. So that was pretty stinky.

So, yes. 4 things.

#3: Writing

People tell me I have a talent. They say it’s an amazing talent, one that I should share with all the world. But when it comes right down too it, I can’t get anything out. When I force myself to write something, I get a B-. And this really sucks because I do love to write, I just can’t do it under pressure. I almost need to have the expectation of knowing that nobody is going to be reading it.

Or at least not having to turn it in to a professor to be thrashed and gutted.

Now I know that I a B- isn’t bad at all. My professor even said that if we got a B it means that we did the assignment right. But I got a B-, which means I didn’t get it as right as the average person in the class. This is disheartening to me. I know that I can write wonderfully when the right place and time come along. Unfortunately, those times never come when I want them to.

Like right now for instance. It’s 12:18 am. I need to be sleeping. Rather, I am sitting here writing, because I feel something.

Perhaps that’s it. Maybe I need to feel something truly to be able to write about it in a pleasing way. I know that when I write a paper for school, I don’t really have any passion behind it. It’s just something I have to do for a grade. So maybe if I try to really get into what my topic is, I’ll have an easier time just letting the words flow.

This has been very therapeutic. I feel much more at ease about this whole thing. Thank goodness.