#5: Ages and Ages Later

6/23/2013

It's been a while. But I have a very valid excuse this time round though, haha. I spent from August 2011-February 2013 in England as a missionary for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. It was the most marvelous experience and I am forever changed because of the work I set forth to do there. My love for the English people is so huge I can barely stand it! And just my love for people in general has grown a lot. My testimony of my Savior has been strengthened and solidified. The Lord made me His. :)

But somethings have NOT changed, and that's what I really want to write about today. This last week has been one of the worst since I've been home from my mission. And I've decided that it really just has to do with being a girl. And not in the one sense that is disgusting or inappropriate to talk about with the general public, just stuff about being female.

1. We lose a GAJILLION hairs a day!!!! And by that I mean about 100, not including the huge wad that comes off while shampooing. Isn't this just the grossest thing in the world? If we lose 100 hairs a day, and you have 4 girls living in your apartment and then you don't vacuum for a week that's 2,800 hairs all over your house! Super barfy!! I never really realized how horrific this was until this last week.

2. TEARS! They come out of my face when I least expect it sometimes! I get sad about the dumbest and most irrational things. Someone could say a passing comment like, "Oh, I like that car." And then I think about people who have liked cars in the past that I've known, and then I think how guys like cars, then I'll think about that guy that I liked who actually didn't like cars that much and actually he doesn't like me either and then BAM, repulsing water droplets come out of my eyes like a poisonous waterfall.

3. I actually am scared of people caring about me. But it's what I want more then anything else in the whole world. All I want is for someone to love and take care of me, but then when it comes down to it, I run away! It's the things that would bring me the most happiness in life that make me the most terrified. Delusional.